When I first started using, it was great I thought. But by the end of my use, it was pretty horrific. It was bad.
The drugs affected my life in every way possible. I have four children who I have not been part of their lives. I have been in and out in their lives. It’s affected them, it’s affected my family, it affected myself as far as me knowing who I am.
So while I was using, I never wanted to quit. I did have my bottom, but I still never saw my future without dope involved in it somehow or another.
It was the first time I ever was arrested over anything. I thought I could go in and plead guilty, take probation, and go home. I tried to do so. They told me that I was looking at 40 years because I had enhancements by being near a church and a school. I was living in a camper, with no electricity, no food, no car, no money, no family, nobody. I was just disgusted with life and with myself.
As a mother losing custody of my children, at the time I didn’t realize how permanent it was. Like, my mind wasn’t clear. I didn’t realize it would affect me or them the way that it did. The emotional pain of losing my children took me deeper and harder into my use.
I got here and our lives are completely turned; like everything is turned. The process groups at Wavelengths actually helped me see things for what they are instead of the vision you manipulated yourself into seeing.
Working with my therapist at Wavelengths actually help me get through a lot of the trauma from my childhood, the trauma from my life in general.
I love it here and I don’t want to move. The weather’s perfect year-round. And the vibe, the energy. It’s just got such a different energy that I’m accustomed to back home. Its vibe is just great!
The tools and the things that I’ve learned here at Wavelengths, I’ve learned how to be comfortable with just me. Through the groups, through the therapy, through the things that they do here, how the people are here, the atmosphere has helped me get back on track with who I am really.
My family is actually involved in my life now. I think that seeing me and seeing me actually learning how to deal with them is actually taught them how to deal with me if that makes any sense.
I think that I have done a complete 360 with my life since I’ve been here. I don’t think. I know, I know I have.
My most favorite thing, the very best thing I love about Wavelengths is the atmosphere. Everyone here, all of the staff here, is like a family. Everyone here is just like a close-knit family and they got everyone’s backs. They’re not trying to tear you down and to rebuild you, they are trying to heal you. They care and I think that’s where it starts with addicts is that they got to have someone that believes them and someone to care. And at Wavelengths, they do that.
I am so grateful. I mean, I am more than grateful that I came to Wavelengths. My life is actually manageable, it’s happy and happiness is something I’ve never known until the last month.
